don't just exist, but live.

2011-02-27T20:04:00.002+08:00

27 February 2011
8:05pm

Mixed emotions, I don't even know what I'm feeling. I wish my feelings aren't true. I wish it was all fake and just a dream. I hope that it wouldn't come true. But I can't say it out, 'cause words don't mean a thing anymore.

Lay me down on a bed of roses

2011-02-19T23:14:00.002+08:00

I think cleaners in Singapore are probably one of the top most underrated jobs. I was having dinner outside today, and happened to see a cleaner clearing the plated off table before me. Thinking, what kind of experience would we be having when dining outside? It's this kind of jobs that we tend to overlook and look no importance to it. But it's these people who keep the environment clean for us to feel comfortable in. Cleaners in dining areas have to clear the plates and wipe the table for others to occupy. Imagine without them, we would have to bear with the filthy plates with remnants of food left on the plates while having our meals. I think they do play a importantly huge role for the society, but sadly are underrated. Which is why I strongly believe, no one is not important.

Here's the day you hoped would never come

2011-01-03T19:50:00.002+08:00

So school's starting tomorrow.
Who's ready?

It sucks having to be awaken by an alarm buzzing while you're having your beauty sleep. What's more, having to wake up before 6am. Oh great, I forgot the usual timing I have to wake up to.
And hope seating arrangement doesn't suck :)

Till then, 2010

2010-12-31T23:12:00.005+08:00

Omg. must. hurry. publish. a. last. post. for. the. year. before. 2010. ends.

I'm like watching the countdown alone :( Everyone's asleep because have to wake up early for picnic @ ecp tomorrow. But I'm not! I'm staying up to welcome 2011, and 2011 better be nice to me!!!

Dad and mum took leave from tuesday to thursday so we could do some stuffs together before the year ends. Went to places we never really did before. Tuesday went to chinatown to walk around. Boring as hell. Wednesday went to City Plaza @ Paya Lebar. It looks pretty bad and rundown but filled with many many treasures if you searched carefully hehe. So yeah, bought quite alot of stuffs. It's all been typed in my twitter. Jeggings, prettaye blouse, a pair of flats, and a pair of heels. AHHH! Thursday stayed home, lmao. Did nothing much, but Granny came over.

Today, which was new year's eve.. Went to play badminton at the CC. It's been so long I got tired after a tough game with dad for 20 mins. After the badminton session, went home to bathe. Then went to sleep for the third time of the day! Is it crazy? :s I still feel tired, although all my sleeps lately, were really deeeep sleep lol. Woke up to go tamp mall for dinner and sis needed to find some book. Then nom nom icecream then home!

Today, everyone would be like "OMG 2011!!! SO EGGCITED!! AHH!! WOO!!"
Then tomorrow, everyone would probably be "Ahh, just another day."
Worse still, when tuesday comes.... I don't have to say right? Hahaha.

And I hope there's no cca on the first day of school which so suay, happens to fall on a tuesday. Why cannot postpone to wednesday?

Okay, so 2010 in a nutshell.

2010 was a pretty tough year for me. Lots of things to deal with. New things. Heartaches, happy times, rollercoster moods and all. Which I could say was really tough, to deal things myself. New friends, because of a new class and all. Cca leadership role, which I have to say, super tough with the sec ones. I really can't wait for 2011 April-May's period, where I can just let go of all the leadership roles in school. Step down from the council board, and band. Can't wait for that.

Anyway time will pass really super super fast next year. Because there's probably so much to do and accomplish. With the Os drawing near, I should really start drawing up my plans for the year and exercise some self-discipline. So, kidsloveradio, facebook, twitter, tumblr, don't get stuck in my head and stay far away from me, please :(

I actually have so much more to say but I can't find the right words to write it all here. And anyway, it would take me forever. So, I'm gonna write till here. The last post for the year. Till then. See y'all next year.

Gonna go watch my countdown now, alone. Forever alone.

Daiyangtian's out!! Singing!!!

HAPPY 2011!

It's like the ground is crumbling underneath my feet

2010-12-26T20:31:00.006+08:00

Happy Boxing Day!
So this was what I got for Christmas from dear sis. Love it so much! Now I can lounge anywhere in the house of course, with this soft cutie. Heeeeeee. But too bad, the holidays are coming to an end.

DID I MENTION THE HOLIDAYS ARE COMING TO AN END?!?!
There's less than 9 days including today. Oh wow time really flies when you're ~~having fun~~ lounging all around at home and having fun. Oh great, I haven't completed 60% of my homework, I think.

And in less than 9 days, she ^ will be a senior hahahahahahahahaha. And not just any sec 2/sec 3 senior, but a sec 4 senior. Muahahahahahahaha. Can't wait to see 2011's batch of sec ones, lol. Hopefully their cute and not any existences of any bimbotics little girls or little ah-bengs. :)

So, yesterday was Christmas. And what I've been anticipating for the wholeee year. Since 26 December 2009. Spent the day with loved ones, family. Went for Christmas lunch at mum's friend's place which was at Pinnacle @ Duxton. Quite a wow place, taking in that it's actually not a condo. But do you classify that as HDB? Anyway, it was really quite a view. They stayed at 41 floor so you can have free breeze coming in all the time. Went up to the sky garden at the 50th floor. Halfway it kind of showered, and since it was so high you could look across and see misty areas that was already experiencing heavy showers which was really cool.

After the christmas lunch and sight-seeing, headed off to Serangoon's NEX mall. I actually twitted something, but failed to send. Anyway, I was saying that there was food everwhere in NEX. I mean everywhere. And that kinda explains why Singaporeans are putting on weight, maybe me too ha-ha-ha. Subway for dinner, Italian BMT double-meat!!!!! Then starbucks, ohmailove.

Headed back to bedok at night-time to enquire about PS3 for the third time lol. And had a deal! Dad bought it for us three for Christmas. Hopefully able to find some nice games to while my 9 days away. Omg 9 days.................... :(

I WANT TO REWIND BACK TO THE LAST DAY OF STRUCTURE PROG! Can jump the dates whereby I have to come back for cca, thx.

Today woke up bright and early at 7am. Had to rush dressing up and a few bites of breakfast before cabbing and rushing over for church service. Enjoyed the service @ the Rock Auditorium thanks to bro and his friends for queuing up early for seats at like 6am plus. Instead of what we were going every sunday, the overflow rooms at Gallery West haha. Instead everything was live, instead of just seeing it on screen, although it's live happening at the Rock Audi. It was nice. Wore my new heels for the second time! After church went to Parkway~ Then home sweet home. Then afternoon nap heheeeeeeee.

Okay! Abrupt ending ha-ha-ha but anyways.. Hope y'all enjoyed your Christmas and may 2011 be a blast ;)

And... Help me click of my nuffnang ads! >>> Many thanks!

Blessed Christmas!

2010-12-25T11:06:00.002+08:00

A quick snapshot and post before get dressed and leave the house!
Here's a Blessed Christmas to everyone out there! No Xmas cause you're crossing Christ out of Christmas. And of course, He's the reason for this festive season! :D

Like memories in cold decay

2010-12-21T14:41:00.004+08:00

I'm the kind of girl who's active at night. Not nocturnal, not whereby I sleep in the day and not sleep at night. But just active at night. Because that's when my whole family, except my bro is at home. So I mainly have lots of fun especially at night. But last night, before sleeping, while lying on the bed. I kept talking to my sis and making noises, then after awhile I realised that there was silence on the other side. She fell asleep :(

I'm coming back to the heart of worship

2010-12-14T18:29:00.006+08:00

Today was pretty great;)

Read some of the birthday messages from my phone around 4am, and at the end of reading it all I feel so happy. Like you're on cloud nine. Then I went back to sleep happily hahaha.
Woke up from a warm 'Happy Birthday!' from Mummy♥ and a card and little gift from sis:) Went out for breakfast and otw home Mummy bought me flowers, sth she would do for me and sis annually:) I feel blessed hehe!
Logging on to facebook made me feel even happier. I read through all the birthday wishes on my wall, and kept smiling. This sense of happiness and like so blissful, esp those with special messages in it. I almost teared y'know hahaha! Thanks to everybody :D My second birthday on facebook. Remembered I was replying all the wishes in the hotel in thailand last year. Aw I miss bangkok;( All the shopping!

So today was also my operation date. Went to Mt Alvernia hospital. Local anesthesia. The injection was the worse, sharp and pain! I couldn't really see what was going on, cause my eyes were covered. But thank God for the soft christian songs the nurse played at the background. So I tried to focus on the music and listen to the lyrics, to help take away my mind from the pain haha. It worked, sometimes. I won't go into detail about the operation, but it was just painful. Even after it ended, I could still feel the sharp knife feeling. Ouch. And tomorrow's my follow-up! And 6 days later to remove the stitches. Hope all goes well:)

Went to Junction8 after that, had jap food! Yumyum. But after the meal, was too full to even move ;( And dad bought iced coffee from YaKun! Weee luvvvv. Bought sis' christmas present (it's a surprise, hopefully she doesn't see this!) What to buy for my for bro! It's hard to find gifts for guys D; Walked around then home sweet home!

PIZZA TONIGHT!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MEEE :D

This was quite awhile ago, when my hair was much much shorter hahaha!

And happy birthday to Vanessa Anne Hudgens! The only celebrity I know that shares the same birthday as me LAWL.

It's all about you, Jesus.

One final fight, for this tonight

2010-12-12T16:34:00.004+08:00

2 more days

It always sucks when the special day for me is approaching. And always seems brighter when it's someone else' day. Whyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. Hope something good's in store.

She's always trying to save the day

2010-12-09T14:40:00.003+08:00

Ciao!

Today's 9th December, which marks the day of the married life between my dad and mum;) If not for this day, I would probably not exist in this world, sitting here in my room in front of a laptop blogging. Which means it's a pretty special day. I remember how I used to whine (probably many others, not just myself) about how we wished we didn't exist in this crazy world during the lowest points in our life. Life has it's ups and downs. I know how cliché this sounds. But true to its meaning, we face different mixed emotions through different phases of our life that we go through. Haha why am I even talking about this!

So, today's the 21st wedding anniversary for my parents. I wished I were around 21 years ago to see their wedding LOL. Anyway, I spent the whole morning after breakfast till 1pm doing a card for them. And here's the result!

I know, I know. I didn't know I could do this too.
And no, it's neither printed nor traced!!!!!!!!

Back

I was doing part of it in front of the comp watching Despicable Me. Haha i know i'm pretty slow to only watch it now, but hey, I was waiting for the HD version to come out!

So anyway, I'm gonna go East Shore hospital for a very minor operation ;(
Though it's really minor, I'm still scared cause it's my first time having part of my body cut open! Maybe I'm kinda exaggerating, lol since it's only a small spot. Haha but still!

Till then!

You learned my secret and figured why I'm guarded

2010-12-07T14:34:00.004+08:00

Who reads my blog? Hi there;)

Haven't really been up to much lately, which is why the lack of post for the past two days. Read finished a book within a day yesterday, so happy! My record breaker, haha. But no, it isn't those thin thin with gigantic letters and colourful pictures and lots of gaps in between each word. No no no. I have grown. Some kind of high school story, hmm.

And just a random thought while I was on the bus home from school today. I was thinking, why do people wear tees and then another racerback tanktop over it? Is it because they find Singapore too cold? If so, a jacket would look more presentable and more pleasant. Or is it they can't make up their mind whether to wear a tee or a tanktop? Haha if so, it's a more reasonable answer. You're probably just weird.

Anyway, today we used the new saxophone during band that was delivered on friday. So happy, it's like so .... shiny, and new. Lucky batch. Well, at least I get to use for less than half year, before I step down. (can't wait) And after the new saxophones came in for the seniors, there was a problem .. Too much saxophone, no storage space. But found ample space in the end.

Nothing much now, so I'm off;)

Yeah i've been back to sims 3.

Now who's right there every time you cry?

2010-12-04T17:48:00.002+08:00

Was online browsing then I chanced upon these cute baby rompers!

My favvvvvv♥ I wish I could squeeze into this..

Girl so cuteeeee!

I would buy the cat (C) one. I mean, of course when I have a baby!
Hm, my future plans. I want babies!

Baby stuffs so cute! Probably next time when I'm pregnant and visit the baby merchandise shops, I would like probably "so cute!" all the way hahaha.

Like a comet pulled from orbit

2010-12-04T17:23:00.004+08:00

Hiiiiiiiiiii!
I've been trying to do a daily post these few days, but I failed yesterday! Yesterday was a day out. Had band in the morning till 12. Then received a text from Joey asking me out. So, had to go home change and everything. Then met her at tm for her job-hunting! Not very fruitful, but Joey, don't give up! At least you got some HQ numbers. Hopefully you can get a job soon from either one.

So, what have I been up to today? Baking Angel Food Cake! An Angel Food Cake basically looks like this:

(It's actually like a chiffon cake.)

And looks like this when dressed with my yummy lemon honey yoghurt sauce!

I snapped some photos of mine, but the photos didn't do my yummy cake justice! So, I didn't want to ruin the angelic image of it. LOL. But counting it was my first time baking a cake, I think I fared well! :D The hardest part was probably separating the egg yolks from the egg whites, and it was only the first step!

And I lived in your chess game,

2010-12-02T14:02:00.003+08:00

but you changed the rules every day

Today's kinda boring, maybe because I ran out of videos to watch :(
The mozzie bites are irritating me! The previous post which I said I had four mozzie bites on my left hand, there were two solely on my middle finger! One on my fourth, and the other at the other side of my palm. Lol, how do you describe that part? The flipside of your palm?

So yeah, haven't been up to much lately. But I just came across this posting ad in Ice Cream Cafe that offers pretty flexible timings and work shifts, which is kinda what I'm looking for. And I've just submitted an email to the person-in-charge. Here's a shoutout to anyone who's looking for a job. I need company!

I loved lunch, egg mayo sandwhich. Kbai!

I found my way through the clouds

2010-12-01T15:50:00.005+08:00

No more runnin' scared and closing my eyes

Hi, so I just got back from tuition. And I've been seeing funny things recently. Okay, let's start with yesterday. I was coming back from school, alighted from the bus just below my block. And while walking to the lift lobby, I sighted these few birds nibbling at kid's snacks. Those really small crackers that are in orange. Then I remembered, seeing birds nibbling at human's leftovers. Especially birds in Pasir Ris Central, they appear to be birds that haven't eaten in a thousand years. Like, what?! Was lunching there last time, and birds always crowd around the bin for the dirty plates that still have some scraps of food left. Then they kept nibbling at it. Someone shoos them away, they come back right after that person left. Then recently, I see birds nibbling at cat's food -_- They eat everything? Human's food to cat's food. Do they eat dung too?

And so, I was on my way to tuition just now. Passed by a daycare centre that was under a block in tampines. I peered in, I see a teacher putting the little kids to sleep, guess it was their afternoon nap time. The lights were off. Each of them were sleeping on tiny mattresses. How cute! Then the next classroom was a teacher pouring milk into their milk bottles, then probably off for their naps. So nice, warm milk before nap time:)
Then I walked on, walked across a block, then saw some indian workers sleeping at the void decks. Something like how I had seen earlier. Except they weren't cute, they were grown-ass men and except that they didn't had tiny mattresses. (LOL)

During tuition, I spotted I had four huge mozzie bites on my left hand! And a giant mozzie bite somewhere near my left ankle. I guess it was bitten when I was writing the post yesterday. Until today, I still don't dare to kill any mozzies with my bare hands. If I dared, I would smack the blood out of them!!!!

*edit
Btw,

HELLO, DECEMBER.

We let all these moments pass us by

2010-11-30T14:18:00.013+08:00

Oh my goodness, I'm so fascinated by one documentary I watched on Discovery Channel that I came here immediately to blog about it. (Actually not really, I get distracted by facebook updates and kevjumba's twitter lol) I'm still amazed.

Okay, the documentary's titled 'Surviving Death'. That was the second episode that I've watched. Yes, second episode and I'm even more amazed. Actually watching this documentary actually explained what kinda happens after life. There are 3 true stories in each episode. Episode 2 was freaking amazing. First, was this 15 year old dude who suffered from cardiogenic shock. Actually, it's not really that. I can't remember what term they used. But from what I googled, this is probably the closest I could find. Here. There are probably repeated episodes, so if you have cable tv, go check it out. He was dead for 15 minutes? Okay he didn't really explain what he experienced after life. Probably he was just a kid, so didn't really interview him much. But his parents and grandfather. It was probably his grandfather that saved him, because he performed CPR on him before the paramedics arrived since he was a fireman, and that was probably the least he could do. Cause sometimes, a second could determine life or death.

Actually it's kinda a spoiler isn't it? :/ But I'm so amazed and fascinated! And for the benefits for those without cable tv hahah. Second story was this guy who laboured for some gas electricity company(?) He got a shock of 68000 watts. And it only takes about 100 watts to kill somebody. Okay, apologies if I got my facts wrong cause this is all based on my memory from what I heard form the doctor. So, he received like 680 folds. That's like, insane. It transmitted from his left hand, and guess what. His feet was burned. Like even his shoe melted. So, just imagine how much internal burns there were. But he survived, miraculously. And he said, he heard a voice 'Patrick, you have a choice to go to heaven or go back to your family.' and he mentioned he didn't knew who was asking him that. He thought, God maybe. He chose to go back to his family. And he mentioned that after he died, there was this full life review being played right in front of his eyes, from early childhood till that point of time. How amazing is that. He added that everything was calm and just, beautiful.

Then the third story was this pretty young adult guy that was riding some kind of tractor thing. And was racing with his other friends. Okay then they were racing, obviously. Then blahblahblah, BAM! It like totally crushed him, his skull and everything. Then blahblah, he was brain dead. But he could hear his hopeful family all around him saying goodbye. But he wanted to tell them that he wasn't dead, he didn't want them to say goodbye. Then they felt some kind of life being brought back into the room. So, they didn't give up hope. Miracles just happen. Even the nurses were all preparing his body for organ donation.

I think life is beautiful, somehow. It is beautiful how God created and planned everything so perfectly for us. Although there's some point in life where you feel crushed and so fallen apart, there's definitely a reason from it. Because God wants to put you in trial, so you can be stronger and learn from it for the better future. There is always a rainbow after the rainstorm. Even after people go through breakups and all, it's to just put you through challenges, just so you can be stronger and more in shape for your better other half. So, don't give up hope. There is a better one. Like how he even gave us a full life replay in front of us even after we've died. They described it to be beautiful and calm. Their description kinda made me not feel scared about dying. Because after dying, there's like no pain. You see your full life replaying back again. Then you go into the arms of Jesus. Like you're right where He is. There's no pain, no sufferings, no illnesses, no poverty, no hunger. It's just pure perfect right up there. No fear at all. It was also hard for those people who experienced it to describe it in words, cause it was like so beautiful and everything. One guy said, to choose the best feeling you've ever experienced in your life and multiply it by millions, that's how you feel as your life replays back before you cross over. Like, beautiful. Life is beautiful. This documentary has changed my thinking, wow:)

Just open your eyes, and see that life is beautiful.

*edit

Okay wow, while I hit the 'publish post' button, there was this link 'Who Jesus Is'. So I went to check out that site. ~~And what coincidence~~ It was all arranged, I want to share this good news.

I was a flight risk with a fear of falling

2010-11-29T21:06:00.004+08:00

Flash forward and we're taking on the world together

Hi Clar, this is like the first picture I can find when searching through your facebook photos that has both of us in it haha. This means, it's been awhile. Wow haha.

So anyway, today's your special day, 29th November. The day you actually let out your first cry! And the day you first appeared naked to the world. (LOL) So, just wanna wish you a happy birthday. So sad you had to go for cca the whole day! Anyway, I feel so nice now hehe :3 Because you won't even be in S'pore on my birthday!

Okay, so happy birthday !

Today's also my little cousin's birthday! Okay, she's not really little anymore. Primary 6! Lol, still seems little to me and my sis hahaha. You probably won't see this. But, strive for straight A* for PSLE next year! Your results are like so far from mine. I couldn't even get straight As for primary 5. (I was almost there! Believe me. Actually I can't really remember.) All I know is, I'm not getting straight As naooo. So, happy birthday!

My illusion, my mistake

2010-11-28T18:22:00.005+08:00

I was careless, I forgot

So, haven't been playing my pretty new Sims 3 because I've been watching KevJumba! Ahh it feels like I'm in love hahaha. Nah, not gonna be those bimbos :3 (BUT I LOVE HIS VOICE!)
Since I've finished watching all his videos, I'll just get back to playing Sims 3?
Anyway, yesterday Mum dug out a book for me that she bought for Kino some time ago. I guess I'll try to read it since I have so much spare time now.

Muahaha, yes I wanna follow them, get into the good habits so I can be highly effective and successful. This shows I'm a good student. Really.

We'll walk this road together, through the storm

2010-11-27T10:37:00.011+08:00

Whatever weather, cold or warm

Hi, it's been quite awhile since I've been here:)
I just felt I had to do a blog post for the outing with 2/4'09 on the 25th to show my love for this fab class.

We were, well, supposed to meet @ 12pm. But saw each other like much later than that, hahaha. This outing was really worth the travel all the way to Harbourfront. Window-shopped awhile while waiting for everyone to arrive, then lunched at Food Republic, then off to Sentosa. (I'm getting all excited while typing all this :3)

Here's with darling Elly

The water was mad salty!

why-yee-el-el-oh-doubleyou

Elly: I want the white clouds here, and the grey clouds the other side.

Pretty babes on da beach :3

Soon, it started to rain. Luckily it was after we had a few hours of sandy and wet fun on the beach. So we ran to the toilet to get changed and washed up. Then took the tram back to vivo. Dinnered at Long John Silver's. It was quite awhile since I ate there haha, unhealthy! But who can resist their fries?! (Wowie look at the amount of excess oil on the black plate)

After dinner, walked around some shops, the guys were bored and tired haha. Then everyone went to choose a bag for Samuel for school next year haha. Then our legs were really tired, everyone was dragging their feets, so we decided to head home!

But how could you leave me on my birthday and on the day of bbq!

Hehe

I wanna send all my to 2/4!

So I travel back, down that road

2010-11-13T20:06:00.002+08:00

I probably have the mum that anyone wishes for. Though she has her flaws, she saw me when I was invisible to everyone else.

Crossed another cold state line

2010-11-11T14:33:00.004+08:00

I couldn't breathe. Not in this crazy world where everything goes out of hand. It's a spinning world. I can't do anything to slow things down, can I? I push people away. I keep things to myself. Because I can thought I can trust no one but myself. But sometimes, I screw myself up. I keep deluding myself. What was I thinking. Everyday isn't easy.

I don't need anyone to ask me if I'm okay, or any cheerup words or anything. I need some physical touch, not in a sexual way. I need a warm hug. A warm, sincere hug can assure me, it can make me feel safe even for those seconds. Because words are just not enough right now.

Everything.. Everything is crashing down. I have no idea why. I look to others, they seem to have an almost perfect life. Friends, support there whenever they needed, open arms readily available for them, goals for their life, family, love, a refrigerator filled with tubs of ben and jerry's, a pile of pancakes with overflowing honey and strawberries for breakfast. They just always have cream on their coffee. While I just have the plain one. They have everything served to them in a silver platter. No, I'm not complaining about my life. But I wonder why. Why does a 15-year-old has so much to deal with? I thought problems only existed for the adults.

I feel like just stopping my footsteps. But that wouldn't stop the earth from rotating.
I'm tired of using words. Because no one pays attention to what I have to say. I'm tired of trying. We all need that person who can be true to you. However, there's nothing here for me on this barren road.

Don't you think I'm too young to be messed with?

Under the sun we are one buzzing energy

2010-11-07T20:06:00.003+08:00

I'll do a decent update:)

Attended a wedding on Friday. It's been quite awhile since the last one, which was 2008? My cousin's one. It's was really fun and interesting, because it was the first time I get to experience being with the bride's side, so you can actually watch and enjoy the obstacles set for the groom to fetch his bride haha. But this Friday's wasn't much. It was my step-cousin's. Hm, reached there late :x So missed the entrance of the bride. But it's abit sad that whenever there's a wedding, the limelight always goes to the bride and not the groom, isn't it? Hahaha. It's like you can sense this pure love from his groom to his bride through the eyes and vice versa:) Haha, and off to tea reception!

Saturday was pretty stay-at-home day. Only stepped my foot out of the house for dinner.

Sunday, which was what I've been really anticipating for the wholeeee week. It all led to disappointment, sighhh :( It couldn't just make my week a little better? :(

Rolling in the evening breeze

2010-11-05T18:07:00.002+08:00

I love Sundays. And the next Sunday is arriving in 2 days!!!!!

Tell me what to post about, because my mind's a blank right now.

Who can see you're lost inside a foolish disguise

2010-10-27T14:06:00.004+08:00

I'm able to blog at this time, because I gave school a miss today.
Woke up, attempted to walk to the bathroom to wash up, but the pain in my right leg was just excruciating. So Mum told me to stay home instead.
Took a picture of it yesterday (LOL), but somehow it looks much more worse today.

Thank God today's Wednesday, because I hate Weds haha. Timetable ends at 4, and there's 2 periods of Chinese! So phew. But I missed Chem practical, the growing of salts. Aw shucks.

But in my heart it was all so real

2010-10-23T21:06:00.001+08:00

Waiting for the end to come
Wishing I had strength to stand
This is not what I had planned
It’s out of my control
Flying at the speed of light
Thoughts were spinning in my head
So many things were left unsaid

Of course, we know it when we love somebody.
We just dont know if we love them enough.

Korean Bottoms

2010-10-22T15:32:00.001+08:00

Specially from korea!
(Click to enter)

I pray to see Your love become our cause

2010-10-18T21:48:00.004+08:00

Oh great, school starts again tomorrow. I've already tuned to the holiday mood, HOW?!
Today's a tiring day, my heels are aching! And I have to lug the heavy saxy to school, and now no car to school. D: I should stop complaining and go to sleep.

좋은밤

Life's too short for me to stop

2010-10-15T14:23:00.002+08:00

Gahh i'm so bored. They're all outside screaming at a box. Need a getaway! Lol. The cheese fries make me feel sick. Expired mayo? :(

Up to the platform of surrender

2010-10-12T19:37:00.004+08:00

There's hope! There's water on Mars.

I'll take a little time off to update this cobweb-filled blog hehe.
Reaching to the end of eoys! Exciteddddd. I knew the exams are gonna pass by fast, cause most will be busy spending their time dating with their books, then phewww, the next day just comes.
So what's next are the Amaths papers which are practically the monster killer papers. But I can do it! ^^ Then Chemistry, and the Sciences paper 1. That's all right? Friday's gonna come soon! Everyone just go all the way for the last lap! (Although this is not really the last lap, there's still Os next year lolol) But since you've endured all the way till today, you can do it for just for just 3 more days!

Freedom is calling!

I took the circle line on Sunday, was so eggciting!

Sending chills right through my bones

2010-10-01T17:06:00.005+08:00

Good enough to make up for a week's loss of post?
Hahaha!
Languages paper 1 are over!

No regrets, just love

2010-09-25T19:41:00.003+08:00

It's another saturday! This week has been fast haha.
Next week's probably gonna fly past fast too. With Monday, 4 tests. 3 pretty major ones and a vocab test. Wait what, vocab test?
Tuesday, chem test. Then the first day of eoy on friday. Hm I'm just looking forward to the exams, so the holidays can come earlier too! Well, I hope my holiday is well-planned and interesting :)

Let's go all the way tonight

2010-09-18T22:31:00.004+08:00

Grandma's staying over! :)

I shall blog about the holiday week.

Monday to Tuesday was horrible because I stayed home alone through the whole day. Anticipating so much for night time because that's when everyone would come home from work. I was like on the brink of depression!

Wednesday, went out to Far East with Sis and her friend. Shopping and out of home, finally! Reached and went to eat lunch. Started not feeling well, sorethroat. After walking awhile, body ache came. Then everything sucked from there. Came home around evening time, bathed and felt super cold. I was shivering all the way. Took my temp, 38.9. Mum sponged me with an icepack and wet towel. It somehow didn't felt real. I couldn't remember what I said lol. Just too weak. Rested at home till Thursday.

Friday, went to SMU Settler's cafe with cousins. Since it had been planned way before, decided to just go for it. It was really fun! Played lots of unusual games that most you've never played or seen before. Bonded together as well:) After that most went ahead with their other plans, while me and my siblings went for ice-cream at U.d.d.e.r.s (Novena) with two other cousins. Car-ed there. Ice-cream there was pretty good. They even have durian ice-cream! Mao shan wang hahaha.

Pretty up sums up my holiday week. End of year holidays will be better!

2010-09-15T23:02:00.000+08:00

Goodnight Singapore ..

2010-09-13T18:51:00.001+08:00

I forgot to post about the holiday week!

I never had the strength to take it higher

2010-09-12T22:06:00.003+08:00

O hai! I'll sneak up a fast post while my bro is bathing :D

School starts tomorrow.

How suck is that. Although I hate being alone in the house having nothing to do, I won't wanna wake up at 625am every morning to attend schooooool. Besides, there's lit tmrw. And, EL oral on Wednesday. "Yipee!"

Anyway today was good, no home alone period at all:) Washed car in the afternoon with Daddy and Sis. Has been a really long time. Pretty exhausting to be under the scorching sun. Mum treated us to dinner at Dian Xiao Er @ Changi Airport T3 :D Dinner was greaaaat 8) Hope Daddy buys PS3! :( Or I'll be bored to death during the end of year holidays. Heee.

Here we go again, it's so insane

2010-09-07T15:01:00.004+08:00

~~Grown Ups~~
~~Step Up 2~~

Done watching hehe. Grown Ups was pretty entertaining. Some parts hilarious but didn't LMAO like sombodayyee. Heh.

Today's the second day of holiday! Soon, this week will be over really fast in a flash. And soon, things will start to get uncontrollable fast and I wouldn't have the time to gasp for air. I really really want to start things early. But just can't sit myself down, and just revise for god's sake. I would just get up, press the red button on the remote control, browse through tv channels or press the button on the laptop to get it started or searching through the kitchen and the refrigerator trying to find something to munch on or just lie in bed, then slowly dozing off to lalaland.

I mean I really really wanna do well for this EOYs. I've told myself time and time again that it's time to wake up. I heard myself, but I'm not putting any action to it. There's so much to do ahead of me. But I'm just sitting at a spot, waiting for gumballs to drop from the sky. Sux2beme :(

Spinning world.

SMadS

2010-09-07T12:36:00.005+08:00

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I guess I don't know my own strength

2010-09-01T15:41:00.003+08:00

Holiday today!
Which means it's time for some movie catch-up :D
Not as interesting as Step Up 3 :(
And throughout the whole movie, I was trying to figure out why the male lead was so familiar! Turned out, he was the male lead for Dear John hahah. Oh well, absent-minded!
... And I thought I could be pretty much productive today for the upcoming EOY which is in exactly a month time :/

And right now there's a steel knife in my windpipe

2010-09-01T15:22:00.004+08:00

Happy Teacher's Day!
This is to Mummy too heehee. Half-day yesterday. Went to lunchie at Fish & Co. with Sheena, Elly and Clar. Planned on going to Safra for bowling, but sadly, reached there only to find out it was closed for upgrading till mid sept :(
So went to CS to catch movie.

It's a gooood show. Well produced:)
Not only that, it has Rick Malambri! Wee so hot I can bake kookies on him!

Ahhhhhh hahahahahahahaha!

After movie, went back to bedok to meet p6 friendsssss! It's been a reallyreally long time:( Joined them late, so some of them went back after awhile. Went to macs to sit and catch up with Syaza, Nic and Richie. It was really great to go back to those days. Sadly, didn't go back to fsps to see ms lim:( She even asked where I was! Guilty ahh :( Anyway, just to let y'all know if you're reading this, I really did miss you guyzzz!

Sometimes you think you'll be fine by yourself

2010-08-29T18:47:00.001+08:00

LOL THIS IS SERIOUS EPIC SHIT.
Go watch it if you really have time to kill hahaha :D

There's no such thing as love. It's a fantasy.

2010-08-23T20:23:00.004+08:00

Yay yay yay! I watched salt! Gooooood show! It's exciting I didn't even leave the comp to go get chips or anything hahaha:)

I really think Angelina Jolie's got the style and charm. I think she's pretty hawwt too! Like c'mon, high cheekbones, sexy lips, glimmering eyes.

I'll let you in on a secret. Recent Spon. Writing, topic was one What tv character/movie character would you want to be? I wrote *points down* Hahahaha! Not bad a choice right!

Runs even with style hahaha! Except she looks a lil' old here.

She's got the looks!

And and, I watched 500 days of summer:)

Is she Katy Perry? Lol. She's not right! But she looks like! (Oops, monologue:x)

There there! Found this scene familiar in the show hahaha. Then went to search high and low for it on tumblr.

Possible for us to fix things? It will never be the same.

2010-08-21T16:32:00.002+08:00

You just don't understand the times I need you the most.

You have suffered enough,

2010-08-20T18:07:00.003+08:00

I should just blog heee.
Anyway, got back another geog class test. 14/15 (Y) Am so proud of me geog!
However, today we got to check our marks for physics. I failed one test so badly. 7/20 :( One reason was due to Ms Ong marking so strict for it, even Mrs Koh agreed! Sigh oh sigh. Second reason was, due to that short week - 3 days with 8 tests. Had to study like mad for Amaths Common Test, physics test and geog test. Didn't really pay much attention to Physics. And it pulled down my overall average score to a freaaaaaking 52.4%! My A1 :/ Omg this thought is so depressing! Just cross my fingers, hoping my chem will pull it up by alot.

Skipped cca today! I know, I know :(
Just didn't have the mood for it. Sorry saxys, me still luv yew ^^.

Gonna find time to watch 500 days of summer! Anybody seen it yet?

And warred with yourself,
It's time you won.

In my windpipe, I can't breathe

2010-08-15T23:16:00.003+08:00

Daddy bought a new tv! It's like woooosh, suddenly a giant square i'm watching. Haha.

Anyway, although it was a busy 3 day school week, it's been really promising and keeps me going, somehow. My tests results are greeaaat.

Geog Common Test 24/25 (Almost perfection!)
Chem Common Test 20/25 (Unexpected!)
Geog class test 12/15

Those were the better ones. Here's the rest that hmm you won't really wanna know. And it's depressing! :(

English Common Test 15/25
Emaths Common Test 22/40
Amaths Class Test 9/30

Hope I can ace my Amaths Common Test! Maybe not ace, but score well for it! :x

I'm through accepting limits

2010-08-14T18:27:00.004+08:00

Sis' baking apple tarts!

No idea what to blog about:(

Callin' Mummy!

2010-08-09T20:45:00.000+08:00

HOW KEWT IS THIS

Then let me show you that now I’m for real

2010-08-08T14:26:00.006+08:00

Done with watching Nanny Mcphee and the big bang. Lots of cute looking scenes in there!

Pigs - synchronized swimming LOL

AHHHHHAHA SO KEWWWT

Pigs can fly, okay!

Fat bird hehe:)

The bird's sound very cuteeee ahaha.

Happy I managed to watch a movie for this week lolol. So anyway, going to Aunt's house later.

Hm. Hm. Hm. Hm. Hm. Hm. Hm. Hm. Hm. Hm. Hm. Hm. Hm. Hm. Hm. Hm. Hm. Hm. Hm. Hm. Hm. Hm. Hm. Hm. Hm. Hm. Hm. Hm. Hm. Hm. Hm. Hm. Hm. Hm. Hm. Hm. Hm. Hm. Hm. Hm. Hm. Hm. Hm. Hm. Hm. Hm. Hm. Hm. Hm. Hm. Hm.

"Nanny McPhee doesn't like goodbyes."

Nuffaye

2010-08-07T16:44:00.004+08:00

Decided to do this on a new post because heh, it's my very first pride and honour! Lol, what am i talking, but anyway ...

HERE'S MY NUFFIE CHEQUE!

It came by surprise, because suddenly Daddy told me I've got mail. Then I thought it would be one of those norm school stuffs. But no, I saw nuffnang. Then thought hm, prolly some advertisement letter or sth. But heck no! Felt it, it was thin, only one piece of paper. Took it out. There it is! Hah, the picture's not really clear but who cares! Gonna ask Mummy to help deposit it in for me. asdfghjklzxcvbnmqwertyuiop!

God is my victory

2010-08-07T16:36:00.002+08:00

Haven't been blogging for awhile. Like, really blogging. Main thing is because haven't found the time to really go press the on button my the laptop, sit down and blog. Because the week's piled up with work and work. Maths common test results, not satisfactory. Probably due to the dizzy spells I had while doing the paper. Still, have only myself to blame. Physics common test was good, got an A1 for that. Chem haven't got back. Mr Mahathir super slow! :( Amaths common test this friday. Excited for it haha, hope I can score it. Hm, what else. I miss my primary school. Kbye.

Cute looking trees at SAFTI :o

And here, our dear wishes for our dear Sheena on her burffffday!

There's more .. haha.

Guess who! :D

Story's far from finished

2010-08-01T14:59:00.003+08:00

It’s a real world. No glass shoe. No seven dwarfs. But there’s always a villain who wants to destroy your life. -Wilson Kanadi

All the way

2010-07-23T17:29:00.002+08:00

BAND, SILVER!

Good job people :D Although we didn't expected something as great as this, I believe we all did our best! Although nervousness got into all of us hehe:)

It was another great experience, something like syf. But SIBF is another stepping stone for us to achieve what we want in 2011's syf. Missing Learning Fest was worth it :D

Ignore the universe when I see you

2010-07-18T16:06:00.001+08:00

MONDAYYYYY, WHY YOU AGAIN!

Yahweh

2010-07-17T18:39:00.001+08:00

WANNA GET AWAY FROM THIS CRAZY WORLD.

Tell the world that Jesus lives.

2010-07-14T19:39:00.002+08:00

School has been kinda boring these days. Everyday seems soooooooooooooo sleepy. Esp today, during chem. Couldn't even keep my eyes open for a second, so my head just fell.

Today was better than all the other Wednesdays, 4 free periods. Yay.

Dinnertime! Kbye.

We're all staring down the barrel of a gun

2010-07-12T17:59:00.001+08:00

Hiiiiiiii my friend:)

I don’t know if I’m really getting better or am I just getting used to the pain.

2010-07-10T16:50:00.003+08:00

Since I'm so bored, I'll blog about my adventure on Wednesday.

Didn't bring my wallet to school, and only remembered my key was in my wallet when I reached home. Called Mum, no answer. Bro, no answer. Sis, having interview. Dad, 2 hours then come back. So I had to do sth rather than just sitting there waiting. So I walked around the neighbourhood lol. Been to places I haven't been in a while. Walked one big round, then came to my primary school. Hm, kinda nice. But it feels that I don't belong there anymore :(

Then decided to go Clar's house lololol. But I was totally broke, not a single cent on me. So I went up to some lady and asked her if she was able to spare me some cash. LOL. Phew, got some money to get on the bus to go Clar's house. At least I'll get some entertainment and something to do hahaha. Her house like so much food :( Ate cheesecake and drank passionfruit tea. Then watched bits of paranormal activity. Then, headed home.

I must put my key in my bag always. I must put my key in my bag always. I must put my key in my bag always. I must put my key in my bag always. I must put my key in my bag always. I must put my key in my bag always.

This like the third or fourth time happening to me not bringing my key in less than 2 months :x

Sigh oh sigh

2010-07-10T15:01:00.003+08:00

I can't really explain this feeling I get whenever I go for band practices this days. Not saying I haven't gotten used to the absence of Nixon of Seb. But is this huge amount of pressure I get. Because I don't have anyone to fall back on whenever I get nervous or am out of breath. At least when I take occasional breaks, Nixon is there to fill in the gaps which makes things less obvious and noticeable.

So, there's this insurmountable pressure I always get. Competition adds in to the pressure. SIBF, SYF. With no backup. Thing is that, I've been lacking in breath support these days. I can't really seem to last as long as last time. And that really sux. And having to play in a hall that just points out your mistakes so easily, it just adds to the pressure.

I just wish this would end quickly. Wanna get over Monmouth Overture and Novena!!!!

2010-07-06T17:26:00.004+08:00

Nose running like a tap!

POP

2010-07-04T21:16:00.005+08:00

Okay shall post about Bro's POP (Pass Out Parade) yesterday at Tekong first.

Went with Daddy and Mummy. Droved to some open space for parking. Then took the shuttle bus to the ferry terminal and ferried over to Tekong.

Then the POP begins! Paraded in like caterpillars hehe. It was drizzling, but they still must stand there. So poor thing! Snapped alot more pix but later upload hahahaha. So here's a few:

Bro's company, Raven.

The part where parents are supposed to come down and put on the cap for their sons. Went down there, everyone so smellaye LOL.

Band behind! No saxy D:

Nearing to the end, they all threw their caps up like some graduation thingy lol.

Then waited for the dismissal. Company by company. Bro's was the second last so waited quite awhile. Waited for him to snapped pix with his friends. Then started queuing for the ferry back. Omgwtfbbq, queue freaking long. Wait wait wait.

Korkor, no more BMT for you! :D

2010-06-30T17:51:00.001+08:00

This sense of guilt.

Out in the darkness with no guide

2010-06-28T17:09:00.006+08:00

“Being happy doesn't mean that everything is perfect. It means that you've decided to look beyond the imperfections.”

Time has been passing us so quickly. Things have been changing so fast. Lives have been changed.

First day of school, exciting to see friends. But not exciting for lesson time. Super sleepy during lit, dying to sleep but apparently I just can't. More than half the class was standing in silence for 25 mins because we didn't bring the lit text. And apparently , I just haven't mastered the art of sleeping while standing. So, it was torturous. After 2 periods of torture, Geog. Slept, yay lolllllll. It was great, till the bell rang and it was Assembly. -_-

Stayed in school to eat and talk with the girls hehehe. So nice to get together to talk again, got out of the school, walk and talk again. Take bus and talk again. Even nicer to have peeps taking same bus as you home:)

Oh, new co-home tutor (which sux because that means an add. person to mind us and a new amaths teacher which happens to be our co-home)

kbye.

I wonder where you are now.

2010-06-24T21:12:00.008+08:00

I've always been proud to tell people I have a pet chinchilla, and her name is

Flint. ♥

I wish heavens existed for the animals, because Flint deserves and has gotta go there. It gives me hope too. I'll be looking forward to the future where I can see you someday, take you in my arms and embrace you all over again:)

Flint Tan

2010-06-24T14:32:00.007+08:00

This is the very first time in my life I've felt so lost. Losing something that has been with you for 5 years. I don't know, it still feels so unreal, it all feels like a dream. Tears just cannot explain just how hurtful this is. Last night was just a nightmare. I just wished last night didn't existed. If I could just go back to yesterday, I would protect you with all my life and avert this disaster, Flint.

I've missed you so much already. I really want to see you back in the cage popping your head out to see me whenever I come home. No one's gonna pop her lil head out to see who's home. No cute little girl is gonna run all over the house at super speed and pooping everywhere. No one to share bits of apple/lettuce/cucumber/grapes/watermelon. You've always loved them as treats.

You won't be running all over the house, and you won't get to go to my room anymore. You won't be around to comfort me. Just showing me your cute eyes is enough. Also, running all over the house, scaring Mummy sometimes making her shriek and I would just laugh.

I won't be able to tell you stories. When I was younger, remember I told you the story of three little pigs? Haha. I just won't be able to forget the very first day we brought you into our lives, that was when I was in primary 4. Going down the escalator, Daddy holding you in the cage. I was so elated, people staring with eyes - what's that? Brought you home, telling you repeatedly your name was Flint. You gave us the blur face, haha. You just melted me. Did you love your huge name that we painted on the wall above you? Because I did. And how you had to stay at home alone for days when we went for holidays. Gave you extra lots of food, you ate them up so quickly. Greedy pig, I miss you. Now you're so fatfat and cute, I love calling you Fatty.

That very night, you were just running around the house, playing. I kept calling 'Fatty, come out. Om nom nom.' I stoned at you stoning. Then I went out to watch tv, you came out and run in the living room. You were tired.

All this doesn't even seem real. Seriously, it doesn't. You were such a small, delicate baby of ours. How could you leave us. And how could you leave the earth so painfully? I just can't forget the heartbreaking moments that happened to quickly. So much memories together as a family couldn't be summed up into here. But I was glad the family could just be around you as you drew your last breath.

Flint, you'll be dearly missed by us. I've always loved you, and still will. I'm glad you were at least able to spend half your life with us.

Trippin out

2010-06-23T13:49:00.004+08:00

I'm not even having the slightest clue on what's going on in your mind. These days have been just so puzzling. It just hurts to see things changing, unknowing of what I can do to help. Oh c'mon and just tell me what's going so wrong.

Prized Possession

2010-06-19T16:58:00.003+08:00

Just finished watching Hachi. I freaking cried 3 times :(

Omg it's so touching. A dog waiting for its master for nine years everyday. You'll need tissues :(

On a side note, I FOUND MY EZ LINK AND MY FAV. COMB HEHEHEHEEEEE.

It was just under my bed, lmaolmaolmaolmao.

And to think I had to pay and extra 2bux for yesterday's move ticket. Hahaha, cheap lesson for me not to put it in my pocket any longer! I'm back to being a student with benefits, yayyyyyyy :D

Millions of stories out there, and they're all naked of the truth

2010-06-18T20:25:00.009+08:00

I'm gonna post 'bout the JB trip yesterday heheheheeeeeeeeeee.

Otw there, before we even reached M'sia there were two epic moments that happened to me already.

Epic moment 1: My sis snatched my xiaozhuzhu away and put it in her bag. I thought she wanted to kidnap it :( Then she said go M'sia no pork. Later they confiscate away. So I just let it stay in her bag, better than having it confiscated. I actually believed her.

Epic moment 2: After the first singapore custom, my sister asked me to check. I thought she meant check whether they've chopped on the passport already, I kept searching through the passport many times but couldn't find it. I panicked and I kept telling her I couldn't find it. Then she said she meant to check whether there was 4 passports, not the chops because it would only be chopped at the M'sia custom. And she didn't understand what I was searching through the passport for. Omg .................... :D

Went to the first mall, City Square. Boring shit. My sister recommended City Square cause she checked online for good malls in JB and some said City Square was good. Wondered which idiots posted good reviews for it. Outdated fashion wears and shoes. And I'm getting the impression that their fashion there now is wedges. All the girls are either wearing or buying wedges. Ew!

Got out of the mall, went to another mall. That was so much better. Bought myself a wallet from Mango (omg yay finally!!!!) and a new schoolbag. Couldn't find any billabong bags so just settled for that. Had lunch and dinner there. Lunch was some kind of style that started from Africa, kinda kewlzxcvnm. Shopped shopped. Then time flew super fast. So left the mall around 8pm. 50mins to reach the causeway then my phone became alive again! Hahahah whatever. Then, home sweet home!

Went to ikea in the late morning with Clar and Wesley. Walked around. Then ate at Ikea. Meal was like 9bux, pfffft. I could have used the money on better things. Oh well, what to do, it's in my tummy already. ^^ But me likey the mashed potato and the coleslaw hehehe. Then thought Ikea was boring, so planned on going to TM for a movie. Waited for the shuttle bus. It took really long. And there was some disgusting smelly drain smell (which was what Clar and Wesley said it was). Eww. Then Wesley told us some animal abuse stores which was so :( then we talked about overseas' amusement park rides LOL. Random nubcakezzz. hehe so cute omg I wanna nom it. Went to CS, bought the tix > walked around while waiting for the time > stalked sheena cause she happened to be there > walked around somemore > banana came to join us > movie!

Karate Kid. Great show. 5 thumbs up, that is if I have 3 more thumbs.

OMG I OWE WESLEY 8 BUX!

This is damn shit, student price supposed to be 6bux. And I've lost my ez link, so I have to get the normal ticket which was 8bux :( I'm losing the benefits of a student!

Omg I didn't know cartoon cakes can look so yummy too D:

Okay, BAIBAI!

Dynamic Duo

2010-06-17T22:26:00.003+08:00

Where are my eyes! Hehe :D

Whee went to JB today. I'll blog tmr :D

Mad world

2010-06-16T15:48:00.005+08:00

Done with watching Remember Me, She's out of the league and Jennifer's Body this past few days. Let's see, the best out of the three would be She's out of the league. Thought it was pretty boring in the beginning hahaha.

Oh gosh, I've like so much homework to complete and all I've done is Emaths paper 2. Deep shit.

3 Chem papers
Chinese paper (Okay I'm most prolly not gonna do this)
English compre
SS (Shit! Essay questions!)
Emaths paper 1
Amaths paper

Damn. Anymore?

And I've like almost forgotten everything about maths, esp Amaths! Oh God :(

She's nothing but porcelain underneath her skin.

2010-06-14T21:14:00.000+08:00

Oh well!!!!!!!!

jimjamjem says:

baiiiiiiiii

Sometimes I think I am at war with my own heart.

2010-06-14T20:12:00.004+08:00

Oh darn it, I've lost my favourite comb and my ez link card. Now, how wonderful is that? I'm having this lost feeling that's kinda indescribable. Hmmmmmmm lol.

Yesterday after church went to Han's for lunch. Not really up to my standard, hmm. 'Cause well, it was my first time there. And by the looks of it, it gives me the impression that it's those high-end places. So the food, hmm. Side dishes are bad hahaha. Fries/beans/boiled veges(yuck!) Guess what's the dessert? WATERMELONS!

Ahaha, oh well I like the orange juice hehehe.

Band today, hmm. Had the first half of it in the band room enjoying the cold aircon. Then later half, went to the hall. Fans. I was too hungry and tired at the end of the whole practice.

Oh darn it again, I have to wake up early tomorrow! And that's when all you people are still in lalaland :(

RP RP RP, here we come.

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2010-06-13T15:28:00.009+08:00

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She had something breakable just under her skin

2010-06-12T20:26:00.005+08:00

Hello, I'm back.

◕‿◕

This few days have either been staying at home rotting or turning up for band practices. Hm, isn't that bad i guess. Just lesser of talking somehow, and laughing. This has caused me to be more attentive during practices! Hahaha. Like I'll take note of certain parts where Mr Goh has pointed out changes or portions to be more cautious of when playing. Unlike last time, I'll just talk with Nixon or whoever and just play normally when told. LOL

So yay, one good point :D

I really really really wanna go Ikea :(

Not to buy furnitures of course :D

Another moment seems to come

2010-06-09T11:00:00.003+08:00

Last night was screwed. Laid in bed since 1030pm, couldnt get to sleep until it was 1230am. Sucks having to lay in bed for 2hours trying to get to sleep but you can't.

2/4 09'

2010-06-08T12:15:00.003+08:00

BBQ yesterday :D

Went out earlier with some peeps to get the food. Shopped at NTUC, bill was like over 70bux. But well below the amount of money we targeted for, 80 hehe.

Then carried the food and drinks to Wesley's void deck, waited and snapped pix:)

Then carried it to the pit, yay! Hope the rest upload more peeeekchures sooon!

Our pit area was pretty quiet, which was good lol. Started the fire, cooked. Wowie, the sausage and satays were out of this world:) Thanks for the sponsers, guys!

So practically it was much of snapping pix > cooking > playing > talking > drinking > laughing > playing candles.

Me luv 2/4 09'

If only we could rewind time and slow things down a lil' .. :)

I've never been the kind that you'd call lucky

2010-06-04T10:44:00.005+08:00

Spent the whole of ytd morning doing up the SS project, gameset (Monopoly). Not fully completed. Meanwhile, watched When In Rome. Pretty nice show.

Aww, I think Kristen Bell and Josh Duhamel are both hawt people. Good choice of mains :)

Kristen Bell's really pretty, her hair her face shape. Hahaha.

Oh there's band!

Kkthxbai

Starts with goodbye.

2010-06-01T21:42:00.001+08:00

"I just don’t know if I wanna do it anymore - get close to somebody so they can leave again.

I’m afraid to put my guard down. I’m afraid that if you know who I am, you won’t feel the same. And I’m afraid that once my barrier is defeated and I’m comfortable, you’ll walk away.

I fake it till I'm numb

2010-06-01T21:16:00.003+08:00

Today, Clar, Sheena and Charmaine came over to do SS project. Game set! So we decided on Monopoly. Kinda slow-going lol. But still fun :D Then played with webcam! (LOLOL)

MAI-YA TANG SOMEMORE LOL

Baibai :D

I guess it's gotta have to hurt

2010-05-31T22:05:00.000+08:00

AAHHH SO CUTE I WANT, Mummy pl0x! :(

What a shame, we all become frail, broken things

2010-05-31T20:07:00.006+08:00

I'm so angry :(

CIP newspaper collection was kinda crappy. Gaaaah.

Expected it to be pretty tiring carrying it down and going up again. And I expected us to make a few trips up and going up again with hands smudged with black ink.

So each group of 4 was assigned to the same level for 7 blocks.

1st block: Nothing at all. (Hm, nevermind still got 6 more blocks, should have later.)

2nd block: Nothing. (o.o Nevermind.)

3rd block: Nothing. ( Oh well .. )

4th block: Nothing. ( O.O! )

5th block: Nothing. (This is seriously boring.)

6th block: Nothing. (-.-)

7th block: Nothing. (!!!!)

Oh well.

Anyway after the last block we were all sitting down on the floor, there was this woman who came to us and said she's got some clothes and toys. Then 3 of us went up, wah like finally.

Craved for ice dessert, so went to central to satisfy my craving. Weeheeee.

Hm, hope you had a lovely Monday!:)

What if that something we’re looking for, just doesn’t exist?

Some hearts just get lucky sometimes

2010-05-30T20:56:00.002+08:00

OMGOMGOMG sh0 cut3x!(x12984723)

iie w4nn4 p1nch s0m30n3's ch33ks!

CIP newspaper collection tomorrow.

Gonna be karang guni for a day D:

I must have stumbled into something, look at me

2010-05-30T20:51:00.003+08:00

It's kinda scary knowing how uncertain the future can be.

I pray in my heart that this doesn't end

2010-05-29T15:58:00.003+08:00

Haiiiiiiiii

Here's a few birthday wishes to the maybabies :)

Happy belated Birthday Sissy! (27th)

Happy belated Birthday Geralyn! (28th)

Happy Birthday Brother! (29th)

So sad you're spending your 19th birthday in army :(

Happy upcoming Birthday Melissa! (30th)

Happy Birthday to you!

You're my silver lining covered in gold

2010-05-27T22:48:00.000+08:00

Yummy-ness at Just Acia today :D

Final blow

2010-05-26T21:24:00.000+08:00

Hai there, blogging thru my dad's blackberry:)
No idea why, but today was a really sleepy day. Slept a few times in class. It's like the moment I lie on the table, my eyes will auto-shut lol.
Days have been going on pretty well, I guess. And tmr's the last day of sem 1. As usual, use your hand campaign. And what sux is that there are lessons before and after 'Use your hands' campaign.

On a brighter note, 2/4's bbq's on 7 June. Yay baby. And which also means I can finally skip one band pratice, phew. Hm, it doesn't feel good to be able to attend all the practices. Makes you feel like the dumbest person on earth LOL.
Double yay.

Learning Journey

2010-05-25T22:51:00.004+08:00

Went on an excursion to the Electricity Power Plant. Only had a talk and a lil quiz. Nothing much, just that it was at Orchard and it probably enlightened everyone lol.

My companion for the bus journey ...

And this woman :D

Then went to Pasir Ris Park's mangrove. Super lots of flying objects and mosquito bites! I've got like a gigantic insect bite, idk what insect it has like three sharp needles and one big ass that poked into me. And it's bleeding o.o

Supposed to go Bukit Timah Nature Reserve, but phew we didn't due to the lack of time. Going there means walking more. Hehe.

After school dismissal, went to kfc for lunch. Then 5th floor then dragged myself to school for cca .___. Anyway cca today wasn't that bad, I guess? It passed pretty fast and I asked Ben "Finish alr?"

I made my first sentence with Bobby and Vicky! HAHAHA.

Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

I see the best of me inside your eyes

2010-05-23T16:15:00.003+08:00

Emaths: A1

Amaths: B4

SS: C5

Physics: A1

Chem: B3

Combined Science: B3 (Screw chem)

Chinese: B4

Super happy with my maths results. Emaths, have never ever gotten an A1 since secondary one till now. Hehe. And Amaths, B4 is considered a great improvement for me. Remembering common test, I got F9 lol. Even my tuition teacher said I have been improving during this period. Yay, thank God:) For lit, I got 52 for the paper itself, not sure what's my overall score. And my chinese improved by a grade :D

School ends this weeeeeeek:)

Everything's caving in again

2010-05-22T14:34:00.002+08:00

Monophobia

Wheeeeeee

2010-05-20T21:52:00.005+08:00

Whee, pet rocket activity today. Spent the morning at the hall doing the rocket. Pretty fun, and though it looks so simple, it actually goes through lots of steps lol. Then went down for the launching. Super hot. The parachute one was really epic! We thought ours was the nice one that was slowly floating down, but actually it hit one instructor. LOL

Rocket one was average, not that good but not that bad. Hehe.

And that's Lester with the rocket me and Sheena made LOL.

Yay for next tuesday :D

I couldn't have prepared myself for this fall

2010-05-17T18:51:00.004+08:00

I just realised that

There's. School. Tomorrow.

OMGEE

On a side note,

http://missgorgeouslady.blogspot.com/

REVAMPED.

Please support in my Korean Apparel Spree:)

Greater things have yet to come

2010-05-16T16:07:00.005+08:00

Bro's gone back to camp :(

Lunched at Xin Wang HongKong Cafe after church. Felt so sleepy today, hah.

(Pink nose cause I just sneezed:))

I keep calling him eggman! Hehe. He looks so tanned and has got more muscles now :o

Just now went to Pasir Ris to send him off. Never seen so many army guys all gather together before, lol. It's kinda hard to identify someone cause everyone looks the same.

Anyway broooo,

All the best for your 5 day tough field camp. It's gonna be really physically tough but you're not alone. God's with you :) He'll give you strength and support. Just look to him and He's there. 不要放弃！It'll be all over soon. And I'll see you on Friday/Saturday again!

Baibai Eggman! :D

Be patient, J.

2010-05-13T12:55:00.000+08:00

Hearts are broken by words left unspoken.

2010-05-13T12:33:00.003+08:00

After a while you learn the subtle difference between holding a hand and chaining a soul. you learn that love doesn’t always mean learning and company doesn’t always mean security, and you begin to learn that kisses aren’t always considered contracts and presents aren’t always considered promises. After a while you learn that every sunshine burns if you get too close. So plant your own garden and decorate your own soul instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers. You eventually learn that you really can endure, that you really are strong, and you really do have a purpose in life.

I am fourteen and I am already exhausted.

2010-05-13T12:10:00.004+08:00

So chemistry's down. Left with mcq questions for chemistry and physics tmr. Should be alright.

Yessssss, I finally feel alive and I thought I had lost my soul for the week.

Well, not quite. I still feel horrible with the sorethroat. I can feel it at the back of my throat, hope it's not an ulcer. And I feel horrible that now that the exams are almost over, and when I reach home early, I can't eat Lays! The feeling sucks like when the packet of chips are like staring in your face with the picture upright, then you have to instill self-control. :(

Why are there so little people online? All celebrating? :( And I can't go out because I know I'll lose my self-control and eat all the best things in the world, which apparently, are unhealthy. So tell me, why are the best things in the world unhealthy?

Anyway, why is it so hazy? Did some of you fart so much till it's hazy? :(

Aye, the pain in my throat is getting to me ._.

"We could be standing next to someone who is completely broken, and we wouldn’t even know.

Pickled face and sour hearts

2010-05-12T19:44:00.005+08:00

Wheeee, exams are almost over. Ending school tmr at 0915, and Friday 0900. Best, hehe.

Amaths today was pretty stressful at the beginning, no idea why. Prolly cause my biggest fear is I won't be able to complete it in time, cause I always fail to finish my math paper in time. Luckily for today, I finished it in time :) Lost 17 marks cause I purely didn't know how to do it :(

But I feel proud of myself cause I think I did alot better than common test hehe.

My sore throat's getting worse. Nooo :( I'm getting really paranoid about ...

Ulcers on my tongue hurts like hell and each meal I take is like tearing a part of flesh from my throat away from me. I feel horrible :(

And dumbdumb clar brought me to the minimart after math paper.

I was still thinking of getting something to reward myself lol.

Like hm, chips? Sweets? Chocolates? Drinks?

Oh, I can't eat anything. How great :(

Chem and Physics (Paper 1) , here I comeeee. I'll own you. That's for sure.

Close my eyes to your gaze

2010-05-07T17:39:00.003+08:00

Phew. One of the major papers is down. Social Studies. Wrote like some crazy copying machine. From my head to the papers. Couldn't finish my comparison question! :( So there was inference, comparison, reliability, and essay questions with two parts. So imagine the amount of writing.

I did only provenance and one difference for my comparison question, realised time was running out and I couldn't find one more difference and a smiliarity. So I rushed out with the tone, and couldn't write the purpose. How amazing :(

Went out for lunch with Charmaine, Sheena and Clar at whitesands. Ate slowly and talked. Mockingbird, wtf Sheena. Then walked around. Went to the mrt station to top up their ez-links, saw on the screen that the train service was disrupted from tanah merah to eunos. Didn't really know why. Then on the bus back home, got a phone call from Sheena. Someone jumped down the tracks at bedok station and the body got sliced? Omg.

Am I a shadow on your wall, am I anything at all?

2010-05-03T10:53:00.006+08:00

MYE just started on friday and the next paper's this coming friday. I think I screwed up my english compo, all the choices were hard and I didn't have any ideas for anyone of them. But still I decided on doing the descriptive essay. And I wrote less than the required words:( English report (letter) was still okay, chinese still manageable, thank God. :)

I'm hungry!

"We have this unspoken connection. We see each other, lock eyes, smile that one certain smile that means nothing to anyone else, but the world to us.

Till it tears us apart

2010-05-02T22:04:00.001+08:00

Somehow, it just dawned upon me that everything beautiful will eventually break our hearts. Or, our hands will eventually break everything that is beautiful. Things always end up being so ugly. I guess, that's humanity.

I'll be your parachute

2010-04-25T18:03:00.004+08:00

Hey.

NeverShoutNever is nice :)

Went to church today. Was kinda late so had to walk to the other overflow venues, as a result, missed praise and worship! :(

Then halfway, sis drew me on her notebook. So after that i drew her.

So ugly right! LOL

Went to Marina Square for lunch. Ate the hotplate bbq chicken, besttt. Then walked around. Dad wanted to buy Starbucks to celebrate bro's departure for NS on wednesday. (HAHA!) Cause last Sunday together, :( . But instead, went to Mac's Cafe. Bought the cinnamon meltz (super sweet and nice!), chocolate milkshake, oreo mcflurry, hot fudge and Caramel Iced Coffee. Yayyy.

Happy kid!

Sometimes we've no choice but to walk away.

2010-04-24T18:51:00.003+08:00

Da best super saxy section.

Sebrina and Nixon, thanks for the gifts. They were awesome. And I almost cried while reading Nixon's letter! Some extract, "Jemimah, you're the melted cheese that keep two pieces of bread together. Without you, Benedict and I would not have anyone to entertain." and "Remember the times, where we argue whose strawberry bun should be in front of the stand or running in the rain carrying the stands. Haha, now no one can help you carry those stands."

Who's gonnna argue with me? Who's gonna carry the stands for me? :(

Benedict? Hehe. Hope I don't dai in your hands. Lol.

Sebrina's gift was kinda cool. Wrapped in an envelope with a string round it, like those antique one. :D

So anyway, promise we'll keep in touch and come back please!

I want you to notice when i'm not around

2010-04-17T20:19:00.003+08:00

Today was the last performance with Sebrina and Nixon. So i'll do a lil' dedication to these two wonderful seniors who's always there to make the practices joyful. :)

Sebrina

You've been a really great senior. Really. You're great at being a listener. You're great at cheering people up. You're rarely sad, but you are, I feel bad at not being able to do much at cheering you up. Cause I'm afriad I would make things worse. (Haha) On the bright side, you've been really lame, and I mean really. Haha. You sing random songs, you dance, you're just retarded. You've been a great section leader and a great friend. Aw, I sound so sweet right. :) I'll definitely miss you. (Don't cry k!)

Nixon

Hello. Haha. Okay, you've been really great at irritating me with ben. :( But anyway, you're really gay and retarded. You gay with ben so much, but well, it entertains me and seb. Like today on the bus, (omg). You and ben really needa grow up. :) Haha. So bus rides home are pretty boring, but hey, after you step down, you can't take bus home with me. And I know you're very sad, cause you can't feel my holy presence. Yay, no more bullying from you! :D I'll miss you too. (You don't cry too k!)

S&B

So, all the best for your Os. You guys will do great. And promise you'll come back occasionally to see us. Because me and ben knows you guys will definitely miss us. Hehe!

We'll be missing your laughs, your stupid jokes and everything about you guys. Luv.

Today's probably gonna be an unforgettable last performance for the seniors. After performance, it rained heavily. Thank God it was after our performance. Like straight after that, it rained. Wonder how the next band perform hehe. So we had no choice but to run to the shelter with our instruments. Like imagine how chaotic it was, wet instruments, wet uniforms, wet hair. :( Everyone looked funny with their hair wet, including me hehe. Come to think of it, it was pretty nice haha. Okay, you guys have to check out the pix we took aft we came back to the band room.

The Last Laugh.

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