"I've made a mistake."

How do you start an emo post?

I'll just start the normal way,

Please don't read if you don't bother a shit about me.

Hi.

I'm feeling sad and disappointed again.

But tell me seriously, where are friends when you need them?

You may be luckier than me, having your really close friends beside you,

Shall I emphasize the words, really close.

Giving you real advices from the heart, comforting you, being with you through it all.

I don't get that.

Where exactly are my friends?

You guys, just disappear from my life just so suddenly when I have problems.

It's like only 2posts since the recent friends emo thing blahblah.

And I thought maybe just forget about it, and don't let it affect us in school.

But why must it happen again.

Why must problems resurface again and again?

You guys don't give me advices or comfort, fine.

That's bad enough.

But you guys still somehow rub it in.

Giving me the indirect cold shoulder, the backstabs.

I really don't know why you guys are like that.

Since when did I ignore you, isn't it the other way round?

People pangseh you thn you come find me.

If not what, you'll go with them and enjoy yourself.

Am I right to say that?

Then when you've found a crush, which is somehow connected to me,

You keep coming to me, asking me about him.

WHAT AM I TO YOU?

Once I've found my happiness, you said I'm neglecting you, not replying your smses.

Once you've found your crush, you keep coming to me.

WHAT EXACTLY AM I TO YOU?

And another,

Thanks for those cold smses.

"Fine, whatever".

When you miss that someone, you come sms me with those smiley faces.

What do you want me to say?

And when you ask me that question, it wasn't convenient to reply thru sms, I told you I'll tell you on Monday.

You come and "Fine, whatever" me.

Now, you've changed your crush.

And same thing, when you miss him you keep telling me.

Keep talking to me about him, every moment.

Want be friends with him, but don't dare then keep telling me.

Keep telling me you're gonna cry becos you miss him.

I already gave you advices and talked to you,

But you keep bugging me with the same sentence.

"I miss him and I think I'm gonna cry."

Do you need some special attention or what?

When I have problems, you seem nowhere to be found.

I don't even seem to get a word of real comfort from you, needless to say advices.

You call me your friend?

Maybe to you not,

But to me .. I'm really not sure.

Sisters ..