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During this period of time, lots of thoughts, images and memories kept flashing thru' my mind. Although it lasted for only a mere short three months .. and a day, it felt as if it was gonna last forever. (Guess it was really foolish of me to feel it that way.) Maybe it's kinda ignorant for anyone this age to fall in love. But this time, this r/s felt real. Where I was touched by everything you did for me. I've got this feeling, a feeling so magical. That seems like everything you did, was to make me feel so so special.

Seeing that you've moved on was .. certainly, something good to hear. But why, I didn't felt this way before, till Joey taught me. I teared. I should be happy for you, because it's sth good for you. Probably, I just feared reality and didn't want to accept the fact. I shouldn't be shunning away from it anymore. It's a good thing that you've moved on, because that means you'll be happy. And I should be happy, and I'm happy if you're happy. Because that's love.

I know I can't blame you about the outcome of this r/s, because you didn't want this to turn out either. I know, you were forced by circumstances. And it still taunts and hurts me, till today. I know I can't blame you for that. But still, I wanna thank you for all, for everything. Thank you so much.

I'll admit, I haven't gotten over you. Or worse, I haven't dared boldly face reality. All I did was to turn away from it, think 'bout the worse, and cry. But for what? It leads me to nowhere. But one day, I believe, and I will, get over you. All I need is alot of time. Honestly speaking, I'm surprised and hurt about how easily you could get over it. And always, I've wanted to know what's on your mind. You're strong. That's good, unlike me. Things have been kept in my heart, without baring it out for days, weeks, and to a month. And it's time I get over it. It's not gonna be easy, it's gonna take lots of time, I think I'm ready for the tough road ahead. But seeing you really happy now, shall keep me going on. Because I want to be happy, as you are.

Life isn't all that smooth-sailing right now. But I know, I don't need to rely on any guys to colour up my life. I'm gonna be happy by myself, and my friends. Though it still really hurts me knowing that I've got to let go of this no matter what, I'll still do it. I'll learn how to let go, you've shown me you could do it, so can I.

Also, we're going into the same class next year, and I'm expecting things to get extra difficult. Still, nothing's gonna change. We're gonna remain at just solely friends. I shall be happy as long as you are.

Stay happy.