I can't really explain this feeling I get whenever I go for band practices this days. Not saying I haven't gotten used to the absence of Nixon of Seb. But is this huge amount of pressure I get. Because I don't have anyone to fall back on whenever I get nervous or am out of breath. At least when I take occasional breaks, Nixon is there to fill in the gaps which makes things less obvious and noticeable.
So, there's this insurmountable pressure I always get. Competition adds in to the pressure. SIBF, SYF. With no backup. Thing is that, I've been lacking in breath support these days. I can't really seem to last as long as last time. And that really sux. And having to play in a hall that just points out your mistakes so easily, it just adds to the pressure.
I just wish this would end quickly. Wanna get over Monmouth Overture and Novena!!!!
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